Nil Admirari

by Marriage Pact

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Marriage Pact is : Luke DaSilva, Matt Grellmann, Alex Saragosa


released April 18, 2016

Recorded by Luke DaSilva at Interceptor Studios

Mastered by Dan Coutant at Sun Room Audio



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Marriage Pact Toronto, Ontario

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Track Name: Search for Composure
Witness my desperation

Intentions blurring in my head

I’ll never get to see them through
I've lost my sight.

I’m sitting silent, and shaking violently

In a corner with my hands over my head
and these feelings I thought I bled out
These tears keep falling endlessly
This blackened melody, it fills my heart 

 And it breathes through me, 
 The only way i'll be.

Thinking straight becomes difficult,
This Loss of sleep so critical,
My only thoughts are cynical,
What’s inside me can’t come out

It turns against me, breeding doubt I need to shout, to heal the pain
(hopeless, helpless)
It never works, to numb the pain, It never works, just feels the same
(hopeless, helpless)
Track Name: The Wheel
Take one last breath, and hold it for me.
Before stepping though (stepping over your skin.)
I’ve yet to conquer a single fucking beast.
I’ve picked my poisons, I think I’ve picked all three

The wheel spins on
Track Name: Carried by the Breeze
So every time, I forget to close my eyes, I see it come, a little closer to me.
I see, I see myself…

And as the weather draws near
I feel it laying down with me
It never speaks and we both know
It isn’t carried by the breeze

and as i shift my eyes, I see old clouds coming in. and they could leave at any moment,
but how that moment feels like weeks…

It wasn’t carried by the breeze
You don’t decide if it’ll stay
No winds can carry it away.
it wasn’t carried by the breeze.